Steady
Oct. 6, 2025, 2:47 p.m.
Whoa, whoa! it’s been a while since my last blog. No, matter! I don’t have a set schedule, just a loose schedule. This blog has mostly been my own thing, at my own pace, testing the waters of what works and what doesn’t work; grammatically erroneous and all. I knew I had been a bit off schedule to my self-prescribed blog posting schedule. Primarily, other things have taken priority and it’s not like I’m generating much traffic or otherwise from the blog. On the back of my mind I was stressing as to post something, anything, but motivation felt lacking as it felt I was just treading on water, and what am I going to do post un-inspiring mumbo?
I may still be treading on water, however, I came across a couple of instances that made it seem as I’m not the only one with this feeling of treading on water. It can be quite a lonely feeling. I came across a youtuber who had mentioned he was doing his own thing as well and roughly states “It felt like I was broadcasting to the void, but some of my talking points were later summarized or mentioned by other people, more influential people.” In my minds eye I thought, “Wow! What a revelation!” It must feel nice to be doing your own thing and suddenly things start working out for you. So this is me roughly materializing my thoughts into the void and hopefully others who may come across this space at some point in the future maybe get the spark of inspiration needed to continue fighting the good fight. In boxing terms, dusting yourself off and getting back into the ring.
If you know me personally, you may be familiar with my personality and how things work out for me, in my opinion, it’s been at a below average rate lately. Side rant; We live in an average world, therefore, the result of anything happening is average; may it be flipping a coin or setting on a new venture the result will be average. I use that as a gauge for how I expect results will turn out. I’ve had a couple of wins and a whole bunch of L’s, however, I can still hold my own I feel. That and I also have some car trouble and decided the walk back home is gonna take a while so I might as well use this time to find a coffee spot and write a bit. So here I am, enjoying a Cortado.
Frustration/negativity is kind of what I would describe the last couple of blog-less weeks/months, it has been a fight to not let that consume me. I have, however, honed in on a couple of trick against what seems like an imminent WW3 or the fall of my society. I even wrote down these tricks as I tend to forget sometimes.
In no particular order when stuff feels a bit off, I have the power of, doing nothing. Doing nothing can cascade into playing a video game, but this sometimes is not enough; there’s only so much video game time before it starts feeling dull. The other trick is to build a lego set; my latest set was the Bugatti lego set I even have the bragging rights of saying my wife bought me a Bugatti. A third option is to draw, I have always liked to draw anime-like looking characters, however, they can look a bit dopey or lopsided, further, as they didn’t have any color I followed the path of coloring my drawings and it’s a whole rabbit hole to follow as there are many techniques, brands, color quality, stead-fastedness to them???(In my note taking, multiple question marks is my way of jotting down unsure-ness) I tried coloring and I sucked. Maybe the ink I chose was not appropriate. My color blending was atrocious, I even ruined some pieces I quite liked. So I tried color pencils and that seemed to work better but I think for now I’ll just continue to do characters with led-pencil and trace with youtuber Jazza ink-pens and other ink pens I’ve obtained. There’s a couple of other methods to combat the “down” feelings but I wrote them down somewhere but forgot. Those have been some of my strategies hopefully that can spark some ideas for you the reader.
For a while, I thought to myself well isn’t that just wasting time? At first glance it seems like yes, it’s wasting time but looking deeper, it’s not. That time I’m using for those other activities is time I’m not doom-scrolling. It is centering my mind, it is time I’m not feeding the machine, it is meditative yet productive, it makes me ponder what my values are what brings me joy, etc. there might be other benefits I haven’t thought of yet but so far that’s what I got. In other news, I have other things in the works more software related things. I’ll relay that information in time. But for now I will go on a quest to hunt for a delicious burrito and acquire it’s power. Parting thoughts, shit can suck but maybe it can suck less with others by your side that and keep on, your saga is not over.